Feast for thoughts! (:

These are a couple of pharases i kept. Some of them makes sense, most of them wont. Ive seperated them under Original, Extract, Me and others. Btw, Originals came from Inspiration i've gotten from the world, Me is after thoughts, and Extract are gotten from another source. Enjoy!


(Original)
A small issue becomes a major road block in life when one or more parties are stubborn, unwilling to accept the situation and posses conflicting ideas, while trying to impose conditions and restrictions on each other. Solution : Stop living in denial and start accepting life as it is in its present state, for the only light you can find is from within yourself. (:
(Me)
This came about when i felt stuck in a rut, and then, with help of friends, i realise that certain things in life, are they really worth fighting for? Do i always have to be right? Must i really be the one to make everyone happy? All these things, they were the cause of my sadness.

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(Original)
There's much behind your happy facade that I'm unaware of. Like, why you paint up a smile for all those who never care. When you reach out your hand, was it to save a life? Or was it find your escape? This is when curiosity kills the cat, the mind failed.
(Me)
People don't want to get fix- they just want acceptence to live in their very own rutted, special way. Who bought the rights to say a person is broken, anyway?

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(Dictionary)
escapism : a mental diversion; helping to forget; providing a means of forgetting about everyday or unpleasant realities for a while ; the avoidance of reality by absorption of the mind in entertainment or in an imaginative situation, activity, etc; an escape from reality or routine. -food for thought!(:
(Me)
this is what i do best, guilty of charge. its a bad habbit, and i intend to rid of it, as soon as i know how!

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(Original)
The innocence of a person is never truly lost. One just needs to sincerely forgive and whole-heartedly accept the facts that has been place on the other party. When a person is labeled, it is like bearing a tatoo for life, on that person's blindsight , or it could also be a sticker that can be removed with the help of others. (:
(Me)
This one has personal stories behind them, and i dont really intend to blurt people's secret out here. Go figure!

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(Original/Extract)
If The choices You make now is going to affect the next 40 years of your life, will you give a damn and do something about it today?
(Me)
Well, im telling you now, the choices you made yesterday have brought you here, today. And the deciding factor to bring you there tomorrow, is in your hands, now. 15 seconds ago, to be exact. (:

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(Extract)
Miracles and Good lucks dont just happen. Miracles come to those who asked and worked hard for it!
(Me)
This is for those who just sits down, and ask God, why life sucks so bad. Everything else is self explanatory.

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‎(Original)
I'll draw this 4 lines on the ground below me.
Then ill repeat the lines again and again,
at my front, back, sides and top, to form this cube.
And that is enough, to keep me from falling further into the darkness.
(Me)
Oh my life saver x3 . This has verse has protected me many times from losing my grip on reality. Think of a bubble, then think yourself entering the said bubble. Now, if someone iresponsible tries to throw hurt at you, just think of the bubble. They cannot hurt you, cos your not going to let them into your bubble, anymore.

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(Original)
The Green-Eyed Monster- a petty human emotion thats looks at every little thing with a materialistic value and gets angry&disgusted with everything it never gets to owns. In moderation, it is good, for it drives a person to reach greater heights for oneself, but too much of it is self-destructive and will ruin a person's relationship with others.
(Me)
So, have you been seeing green lately?

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(Original)
How do you deal with karma that gives back nothing you did good, but repays back everything you did bad? :(
(Karen)
"Deal with it by thinking good luck never exist in the world and suck thumb"
(Me)
At first i thought she was being sarcastic, but thinking about it again, there is truth is her answer. Lowered expectations = lesser dissapointments. Suck Thumb? I've learned that skill since i was a baby. haha. ;D

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(Original)
Somewhere inbetween the lines,
I've lost you, my dearest and closest friend.
I would never blame you for trying to protecting yourself,
For I am only blaming myself for not making you feel safe and protected.
Fair enough, that is my downfall, my shameful misstep,
a grassy patch where the sun will never come to shine, ever again.
(Me)
This lesson is ouch. Trust me, that grassy patch is still dead now.

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(Original)
In this reality of defects, both wanting to be with each other, made them Picture Perfect.
(Me)
Couples and Relationships. There are tons of it in this world. Most of them are made in haste or mistake. But to the few that are sincere, i thank you, for your proving to me that my dreams are real and achievable. One look at a sincere couple, and you can tell they love each other. As compared to someone who gets into relationships for other reasons, Picture Ruin.

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(Original)
If One day can make a difference in a person's life, don't even bother talking about an age gap, thanks!
(Me)
It pisses me off to no extend when people use age as an excuse to do/not to do certain things. I mean, 2 years serving in peace time does not carry the same worth as 1 week serving as a young soldier/civilian in the battlefield. Age is about mind over matter, if nobody minds, then it never matters!

Thats all for now. I hope this manages to entertain you as much as it did for me! (:

The Indifferent One

It is life's tragedy for one to be indifferent and miss out on beneficial opportunities that has been offered. And its even more tragic when that indifferent one, knowing the situation, decides to continue being different and dreams of love and other great things, an outcast heart would desires. The indifferent one smiled, for the heart was happy, chasing dreams that hopefully, would one day turn reality.

Everyone laughed at the indifferent one for losing out, as they savagely reap the pleasures of life. However, the indifferent one doesn't care, the indifferent one doesn't gives a shit. For the outcast heart was happy, the shoulders light from responsibilities and the price that comes after pleasure. Being true to the outcast heart, that was what really matter to the indifferent one.

The indifferent one's strong mind knew that to statisfy the outcast heart's desire, the strong mind needed to have personal freedom. Loneliness was a familiar feeling to the indifferent one. To fill the void, the strong mind began loving everyone and everything, for those who walk the path of love, will never walk alone. The outcast heart smiled, knowing the indifferent one would be loved, for that was what matters.


This is a story of a person, who strives to be different, not to serve oneself, but to serve the Higher self in this world. And through this different point of view, inspiration, creativity and an artisic mind would be bestowed to that indifferent one. You may or may not relate to this, because its something only certain people would achieve in life.

As a cup full of sadness will not have enough space to take in happiness.

"There is nothing to forgive," Death replies. "Mourning is natural and you must deal with your loss before you can accept anything new. Keep in mind, however, that old leaves must wither and fly away from a tree's branches, leaving them bare, before new green leaves can appear."

-Extract

From what i see, Death says Hello to yesterday, the past and the everything that has ended against one's wish- so that one's suffering will not last forever. Because time will past and even ghosts will be shown towards their proper resting place- and that is what will keep me alive through all this @#!@#. I figured that Death, is not necessarily must be a bad thing. It may not mean the death of a person, for it could also mean the death of an idea, feelings, relationships and what has past. In a way, it ends a person suffering. When one door closes, another door will open and through that, new beginings will be made. Change will take place.

Dreams From Yesterday.

Even my dreams,
You began to invade.
As the tears streams,
Rusting this broken blade.

Behind the mask,
A childish curious facade.
With the biggest smile and ask,
How did our problems escalade?

You the high magician,
Enticing the entire court.
Like Merlin a patrician,
Your spells are never short.

But Me the drown clown,
These words come unsound.
Like the fool who learns to frown,
Your magic spells- in time i will unbound.

I’m waking up to the trumpets,
Telling me to move on.
For this rhyme- for this offsets,
I’m telling you this- shine on.


-Me(:

I used the inspiration i got from a past experience and a waking dream to compose this. Its such a shame to have woken up from it though. Still, i dont feel bad much, cos i wouldn't be able to compose this, if i didnt wake up, anyway.

Hello world again!

I dont update this blog regularly,
But I find a need to keep important memories in check.
Thats why you will find that updates,
comes in intervals of a few days, months or even years.
haha. will be posting up poems/pharases ive made from the previous month.
till then,

WATCH THIS SPACE!! ]:)

Heres a sample,

A Childhood Toy.

With a story anew,
Nobody saw how it will end.
Nor anybody knew,
how the soul will bend.

It feels good to be a puppet,
Moving only when my strings are pull.
Being toyed around like a muppet,
Madly charging around like a bull.

As dawn explodes,
Even metal turns to rust.
And when worlds implodes,
Even bone turns to dust.

Today I woke up and met dismay,
A story of love turns to hate.
Like a childhood toy being thrown away,
And this life- i'm finally resigning to fate.

-Me(:

This is a poem of a person, who lives life as a puppet. Seeking only to make other happy, moving only when told. Then one day, the person gets abbandon and thrown away due to lack of ambition- a puppet has no heart in reality. Its a sad life, infact.

lvl200 mega ^^

dreams.

i dont know why im feeling so depressed these days.
the feeling is soo fugged up!
every single bit of it disgust me.
staring down at myself, I KNOW IT ALL.
CAN I JUST BREAK DOWN AND CRY!?

memory lane.

the trip down memory lane,
has always been a bad experience for me.
i was the one experimenting,
keep on toying with people's feeling.
now, every little clue triggers that feeling again.
especially on face book. =\
that's why i always feel undeserving of life's pleasure.
my sins can't be undone.


on the brighter side,
my fever has subsided.
from 38.7-> 36.5. hahas.
all thanks to mom's heal technique ;D
im still on doctor's medicine though.
the painkillers are good.
they put me in deep sleep.
wont have to care for a single thing in the world when im sleeping (:


i remember back then,
during breakdance.
we would all spam painkillers,
just before session =x
wont hurt us too much when we fall.
but if cos, the aftereffects are invertible,
we would regret that afterwards. haha.

haiz, those were the days.
i really enjoy and missed em.
-rashid

i need a hand to hold.

mm. today i woke up in the middle of the afternoon.
it was a sweet dream. i was holding her hand tight.
when suddenly i woke up.

i found my hand gripping nothing but air.
it took my awhile to know that shes not there though.
my first reaction was to get out of bed, and rush to her side.
then i realise that she's in malaysia. lol...


hais , its a sad dream la ):
sweet happiness vs cruel reality.
will my suffering ever end?
why do i have to sacrifice,
only to find that i have to sacrifice even more.
and it never ends, it never ends.

-will my nitemare ever end?
-i love the way, she loves me free<33

burning up-

hello thr! =]
im not feeling well at the moment.
my whole body was shivering when i woke up.
standing up was worst- my whole body was shaking violently. ><
i found that my body temp was at 38.1 °C.
thats dangerous. normally, its 37.5 °C for a normal fever.

so i went to see the doctors instead.
over here, my temp increase to 38.7 °C
my mind KO already here.
had to stone for ard 40mins,
before its my turn to see the doctor.

during the consultation~
doctor said that,
you have running nose, sore throat and fever.
as you know, these are the symptoms of h1n1 =x
lol ! but i dont think im infected ahh.
just need alot of rest, and regular medicine.

after that, he gave me a 1 week mc.
i was like wtf, i got paper next week !
doctor :
this is a recommendation from the Health Ministry Board.
do not leave the house.
-,- sian man.

anw, shes very busy and stressed out today.
dont think i will kacau her for the time being =x
i cnt think straight when im under the weather too. T_T
later tersilap bahase =\

ok thats it.
i cnt find a song for tonite,
really exhausted uhh.



i love the way you makes me feel, when im with you <33
your mine ;D