false hoped*

hahas. this random picture came to my mind suddenly.
so i drew it out. jean said it was a common image.
so yeah, pop goes my bubble @.@ . lawl.

i have no heartwish for the moment.
i put it through alot lately.
happi moments, sad moments.
need to rest my emotions for awhile.
or ill breakdown again.

and then, when a girl comes,
ill have to,
learn to trust again.
learn to open up again.
learn to love again.

this cycle, it never ends.
ill give and give,
rest up, and give again.
make people happy.
i want to do just that.
if only i understand more.
maybe i could keep on giving,
without the hurt.
keep up the cheer.

thats the life i lead.
i can never find love.
love has to find me.

its not something i could control yea?
believe me, i tried and i never intend to do it again~
the only thing i can do is to accept.
accept what life has to offer.

love hurts alot.
but still, everyone craves it.
something beyond understanding.
like fire,
its something i wont play with again. (:


the heartbroken,
rashid.